2020 Clear Vision

I don't really have another place to really write down my goals for 2020 except for this blog. I know no one really reads this and it serves me more as a place I can look back on. Reading about the goals that I set last year around this time, I feel somewhat confident that I did better on achieving what I aspired to do. I wanted to find the "old Kara" so to speak. I no longer wanted to let my stress and anxiety rule over me. In a matter of words, I wanted to find the "Spice of life" again. This year I am doing a very cliche overall goal for myself and then a few small goals to work on. My overall goal is losing weight. I have done this goal for myself before and absolutely failed. But this year I have really started to make steps to live a healthier life and this time I need to stick with them more. My co-workers have really inspired me as many of their joined Weight Watchers and lost a good amount of weight and have kept it off. I haven't really found the best "diet" or "way of eating" that fits me well. I love food. I love to cook. It's time that gets in my way. I am so blessed to have started working this past year as I know that has helped me in my journey of "finding myself" again. But is has created some challenges for my food journey and weight loss. So here is my basic break-down of what I WILL accomplish for 2020. I am going to lose 50lbs. That's right, 50. It is what I need to lose to be healthy. I re-joined weight watchers for a 3 month period in hopes that just by tracking what I eat, will help me on my path. I am going to do better about eating more fruits and veggies. I can't expect to lose weight by eating crap. My body is older and it just can't metabolize as quickly anymore. Watching my sugar, drinking plenty of water, watching the alcohol. At work, I need to pack more things that are healthy to snack on at the desk. Celery, carrots, almonds, etc. And again....water. I am going to do to my Crossfit class 3 times a week. I would love to get to 4 but I want to start out small and at least get in a groove of 3 times a week. I am in FL for the next week and a half and so far I have walked an hour everyday. This is a great goal and I am going to keep doing it the whole time I am here. Unless it rains... For work, I want to continue to strive to be the best leader that I can and co-worker. Sam has done nothing but support me and be in my corner as my boss and friend. She has given me such an amazing opportunity to grow in my skills and talents. She has given me free-reign to grow the company in ways I have really wanted to. I want to see Split Enz thrive and grow to a level that has surpassed what they have ever done in the past. A sensitive subject for now but I do believe still a goal I want to achieve...a baby. This has been the worst feeling journey so far for Will and I. I have been so disappointed and let down during this time. I will continue to seek what God's will for my life is and if this is even something He has in the cards for us. I still feel a longing for a baby though so that tells me I am not done yet. We are definitely in a window that is imperative. I don't have many more years ahead of me. I feel torn about this to some degree because I am wanting to lose all the weight but then I'm talking about trying to become pregnant. What an oxymoron. But to be a mom is one of the greatest gifts. I don't want to miss out on this if this is something I am still meant to be. I could add here about wanting to be a great wife to my husband and great friend to my friends but those go without saying. I at least had to write down on "paper" what my BHAG was for 2020. It's going to be hard but I have faith that I can do this. I am downright stubborn enough. I just need to put forth the effort. Here's to 2020 and a clear vision!